And I think he’s trying to be nice when he says that it’s fine, that I shouldn’t stress. But he says those words like he’s plumbed the depths of my soul. Like I’ve opened up to him and told him my deepest darkest secrets. Like the full reason behind this mini freakout is me having to cancel on him. Again. And I’d like to tell him the truth, tell him everything, but I don’t know where to begin, how to have a serious conversation with him, so instead I just thank him for understanding, and let the conversation drift elsewhere.  

Nothing I write will rhyme for you
And I can’t find the words to make feelings seem true
So you’d never believe I spend days missing your face

Nothing I sing is in tune for you
And I’m trying to do things I never do
Just know I wouldn’t blame you if you ran away

But I’d love you to stay
Please stay

Cut foot; Broken heart
Should’ve known how this would end from the start
Thought I could be the one to make the player quit the game
But I should’ve known real life won’t end this way

Me —

Early morning.
Frosted windows on highways.
Picking songs to get her through the day.
She never thought she’d miss this.
Coz we were all just kids.
And we thought we knew what we wanted.

Me —

I’m not this prone to exhibitions of emotion
But now they’re bursting out
Like I’m made of the stuff and I have a crack
And my hopes and dreams fell out
And I’ve been trying but I just can’t get them back

Me —

He’s like a firework
Lighting up the sky in just the right way
And his beauty doesn’t hurt
He’s like a fighter jet
Racing a steam train
I had our whole lives planned before I even knew his name

Me —

It’s come to my attention lately that all of this heartache could be saved with a single decision. You could decide, once and for all, whether you like me, or whether I’m just a bit of fun. Or I could decide to just to give up and walk away. But then again, I’ve never been very good at making decisions.

It doesn’t hurt much anymore
Except on the days when I hear your name
I just pretend you don’t exist
That it’s imaginary pain

But you know you’re out there somewhere
You know that you’re real
And you know just when to come back
So these wounds can never heal

Me —

I’m outside staring into the night
But even closed windows can’t drown out this fight
Once again, it’s about nothing and everything
But the woman screaming is one I never want to be

Me —

When you left that day I thought that meant you’d gone
Forever; I was trying to move on
I thought our last awkward conversation meant we had nothing to say
And everything we’d done was just a game

So imagine my surprise when your name popped up on my phone
I hadn’t even realized I’d been feeling that alone
And now I’m lying in the dark wondering what’s running through your mind
What made you think of me, tonight?

Me —

When I get home tonight, I’ll say we had a good time
That everything was fine
And that I’m only sad because we said goodbye

I won’t say that none of my words came out right
That you forgot the other night
And that you won’t remember me in four months time

Me —

I wonder where we’ll be four months from now
Maybe nothing will change, but I don’t think we know how
Everything can change in a day
And we might just both move on while you’re away

Me —

We live in the real world
It’s more monsters than it’s fairytales
Despite what I believe in
It’s more heartache, pain and heartbreak
Being in love with him
It’s loneliness and second thoughts
But maybe he feels the same so I don’t give up
Nothing is perfect in this real world
So I’m holding on to all I have of love

Me —

If I had the choice to fall in love with anyone I knew
You may not think I would
But I would definitely choose you
And I know you think he’s bad for me
And you know that I agree
But we just can’t fall in love with who we please

Me. —